I just ate McDonald's chicken nuggets and fries and Sprite with salt. My Streak ended 3 weeks ago, yesterday. There is no telling how much weight I have gained . I have binge eaten for most of the last 3 weeks. 95 days of healthy eating followed by 3 weeks of eating every bad thing you can imagine. I'm gonna try again tomorrow. I am going to try to use my love for my sister as motivation. There have been times where I have eaten bad after thinking, "Why not eat bad ? In the end, none of this means anything. So what does it matter if I eat bad ? " Well, it matters to my sister. She loves me a lot and she has done a lot for me. In the Shawshank Redemption, it says get busy living or get busy dying. Even after all this poison I have put in my body for the last 3 weeks, I still don't see me killing myself. Why ? I don't really know. But I doubt I would kill myself so that leaves living as the only other option. So, why not live for her and also let it benefit me along the way ? So, I am going to try to start back eating healthy. My lower back is hurting so I may not even try to walk for exercise. At least not for the first week. But I can still try to eat healthy. My sister hasn't lectured me on losing weight or told me I need to lose weight. She hasn't said the first negative word to me about my weight or my 3 weeks of loading myself with poison. I simply want to do this because I know she loves me and I know she wants me to be healthy. So, tomorrow is the first step. I hope that each step along the way leads me right back to my sweet sister. Hope is like lost car keys, easy to lose but you can find it if you look hard enough-Superman It'll all be alright-Kacey Musgraves Everything's gonna be alright-Shawn Mullins
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