Can't believe I've joined this page, I know bugger all about gardening! & Never bothered doing anything but mowing the lawn until covid19 lockdown, but I've been gardening, I feel imasculated I've made a rock garden, put in alpines! Even used Bamboo sticks to stake things out, planted bulbs which are actually starting to show I feel this is so wrong. I'm a petrol head car but, before now I've dug holes and poured used engine oil in the flower borders - plants didn't seem bothered, even car paint but those days are gone, WTF us going on with me, I have even listened to a gardening show on the radio, what the hell? The sad thing is I'm actually enjoying doing some gardening, I'm very practical and can put my hand to most stuff but ya know. is this some form of mental illness?